久し振り…

静かな部屋に…感覚がない,夢もない,ほとぼりもない,思いもない…実は何も覚えていません。いつの間,僕は時間が少ないだ。誰か僕を救ってくれた…誰もない。この化け世界に、僕ほど貴重なものはない…一人で独り立ち一人歩きしています,人手がない。そ~一人天下だ。

だが,いつも いい 女が ほしいと おもています。

然し 金ばかりでは当世の彼女できだ。残念だ~最低だ~災難だ!!!自暴自棄じゃない,現実の実務です。愛は実在にいますか、いませんか?しかと お金だけしか 彼女の愛はありません;しかない恋だけでなく 女も君の事が嫌いですね~

でも 僕はまだまだどうも愛を信じる,然も僕は美人と共に結婚したい。けけけ~甘いの夢はそんなに遠いだ,それで じっと我慢しなさい。

今日本語を勉強しました,読むはOK,だが書くはまだ全然下手です。ですからBlogで練習します。頑張ります~来年はドイツ語。

日本語は全然簡単じゃないな~

尝试写几句日文……坦白说,不容易。不管有没有错误都算是练习的一部分。

在《我和明星的99天》中,金泰熙演一个很好的女人;虽然故事很不现实,很耐人寻味儿,恋情的发展很不妥当,但金泰熙演的女人还是很难得的。真希望能遇见那么好的一个女人,轰轰烈烈谈场恋爱。那种浪漫无与伦比……

最近我开始复习日文材料。我想在今年把日文搞好,明年就开始德语的学习,如此为移民做好准备。

但我估计不会那么顺利。现在的时局已经被行动党搞到千钧一发;寻找工作的这段时间让我更加肯定新加坡的制度和情况必须改革……已经到了非改革不可的地步。再这样下去,会有更多人牺牲。那些自己给自己高薪的领导层是不会理会百姓的问题的。总理公署继续支持大幅度的移民涌入政策,那些大学中的垃圾教授也称需要移民来支持人口老化。简直莫名其妙!新加坡人没有饭碗还谈支持老一辈~机会就那么多,外来移民大量涌入不代表机会就相应增多,如此外来移民也会老化,那到时谁去养他们?这个政府真的是笨到没有药救了。

最近Chua Ren Cheng被控嫖未成年少女……这个人我认识,当年感觉他人格就有缺陷,是个自我利益为中心的人,在PA却成了基层领袖,简直莫名其妙。政府就是花大笔银子养肥了这些人,居然用那么多钱去嫖未成年少女~真是恶心。我和Ren Cheng虽然认识,但没有交情。可以这么说,我对他一开始就反感。很遗憾的,在一个没有改革的新加坡,靠他学校的成绩,政府大力提拔他……不管他有没有实力或人品如何~

所以,新加坡已经到了非改革不可的地步了。这个烂摊子……却不容易收拾。

政府能继续糊涂度日理由是因为人民也一样龌龊。我们首先就需要把Meritocracy这么混帐的制度拆下来,以Talent为基础的制度替换之。只有这样,社会和经济乃至国家才能继续前进。

太恐怖了……这就是现在的新加坡……一个已经进入黑暗时期的小国。垃圾当道……社会腐败……政府漠视局势的发展,甚至引进全然没有实力的政客,若下届大选行动党只能拿到55%,那么……

我自己也不知道该不该参与政治改革。我只是知道要是我不参与,似乎没人知道怎么改革。每当想到新加坡那么多混球就觉得他们该死。行动党已经不是‘白色’政党了。它全不顾百姓的幸福和死活……在行动党的治理下,只有小部分的那层人就算什么都不做,就算没有才华和实力也能大笔大笔捞。反而那些有才华的人毫无机会或出路……资源全被上面垄断,分配不均……不公。行动党还整天嚷着提高GDP,但国民生产数值提高也只是提高上层的收入,下层的牺牲根本没有回报。这就是现在的行动党……一个什么都不用做,连特赦也无权的印度人可以年薪四百万的行动党……

太离谱了。

组屋转售价快达到破一百万的大关了……

然而这些政党……这些反对党还是那么差。执政党是不可能变的,靠现在的工人党接手新加坡的管理简直是可笑至极。那么……我到底该不该趟这浑水?但我知道,我越来越受不了行动党这批拿百姓血汗钱不干事儿的……情况已经那么糟糕,除了拼命要钱,他们还能做什么?除了要那么多钱,他们还为了什么?这就是Meritocracy的可恶。Goh Keng Swee就是为了一纸文凭把那个祸国殃民的马宝山留下并送入国会的~许文远说他接手国家发展部睡不了好觉,但他也有大房子~那些受到国家发展部住屋问题困扰的人才该睡不了觉!

行动党的议员素质,根本就是乱来!我越来越忍不下去……在这种莫名其妙的管理下还藏污纳垢那么久!

每次提起新加坡我就一肚子火……新加坡现在的政治……五十步笑百步,大家一团黑。明明就无能,却敢敢要那么多薪水!Meritocracy,老子要是有机会一定把你给拆掉!就是因为鬼Meritocracy,新加坡才养了那么多垃圾和混蛋~!新加坡的社会才那么腐败,经济在垃圾手中如同资源在梁智强手上……

行动党真的不行了。下届的大选……这只能是两个烂苹果的斗争;最惨的还是我们百姓。所以肚子里的火……受不了的话就只能站出来呐喊!要改变这个龌龊的国家是必须站出来的。但……S Rajaratnam说得不错……要成功必须有对的时机,对的人和对的地方。看来时机快到了,新加坡就是那地方,那么对的人呢?要上哪里找?

我要等的会是什么人?

也许在移民之前我真的就受不了了。但参战也要有伙伴。以这种局势,行动党不久后将不攻自破,这不光是行动党内部无人,而是目前的行动党根本就不觉得情况已到了十万火急的地步。下一届大选能把行动党的支持率削到55%,那么就大局已定;反对党间的争夺战就将掀开帷幕。

其实我不是没有考虑参加工人党。毕竟老饶老早就加入了,又被踢出来了……但工人党的志向是什么?工人党那些人到底在想什么?我到底能不能发挥?他们对新加坡的改革有没有野心?第一大反对党有个屁用……一个没有野心的工人党,一个只有执政野心却没有政治人才的工人党……还不就是一座空壳。我最怕就是跳进一座空壳……和一群莫名其妙的人浪费时间。当然,那个Glenda韩也蛮漂亮的……哈哈哈~

奇怪了,新加坡的政治圈那么多年来第一美女还是工人党的韩MM?下一届就40出头了……要还是没有美女出阵,那么……

其实政治改革重要,对一个男人而言,看美女也很重要的。期待下届大选会有一窝蜂的美女参政~

我真的越来越没有耐性了。但确实的,天时、地利、人和的条件都没到齐……要是能移民,我何必陪新加坡玩?

I just got a shock. Sister has lost about 50% of the money I gave her to… ‘invest’. I am beginning to regret trusting her with money. She is telling me she can make the money back… with time. Yeah right~

Fine. No choice. Let’s see what she can do. Baaaaaaaaaaaaaah~

Recently went to Genting. On the bus there was a lovely girl, so I chatted her up and dated her to visit KL. We kissed passionately, I striped off the bra and kissed her breasts… basically I kissed her entire upper body. Then I got sore throat. Her perfume lingered on my fingers for a long long time, but I was worried. I got running nose and sore throat back in Singapore and I wondered if it was HIV… OMG~ The STDs scare was back again! After a day we made love… I decided to talk to her… about her sexual experience. To my fucking relief… she was a virgin, I am her first man.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah~

It was flu, not STDs…

I called DSC clinic to check if kissing can infect me with HIV… and other STDs, the guy on the phone and the DSC online publication said no. However, a check with USA’s CDC website said there had been a case… or cases of HIV transmitted through kissing! Fucking STDs… Still, I decide to go for a check after 3 months to make sure. Obviously, the flu came at the wrong timing. What if… she may be a virgin but she is infected via non-sexual channel? What if Christine was infected by STDs and I am infected due to the casual sex?

Besides… she is already 23yo, and I am surprised she was still a virgin. She reminds me of Kate… not that she looks like her, but many many years ago… Kate was also on the bus to Genting with me… and I did nothing to approach her. Fucking stupid I was…

Just now at the bowling alley, I saw 2 girls swinging. One of the girls was in red and got long hair, looked pretty… so I went over and suggested a game. We had two rounds, and I bought them a drink each. I asked the girl with the long hair for number… the other girl just giggled. She told me she is 18yo and still schooling. That’s nice. It’s been a long time since I have met a school girl. 18yo is a good age because it’s not illegal to make love with her. I have invited her to skating at Jcube… little girls love skating, so why not? The problem is… I don’t know how to skate. The good news will be, I’d ask her to hold my hands and help me skate. Well… that’d be for tomorrow.

PM Lee has a new facebook page… it is managed by PMO, so I expect a lot of those ‘undesirable’ comments will be deleted. Basically, I don’t know why the page if he is not prepared to answer the problems. I feel like ‘like’ him so that I can ask for a job. There is no need to be nasty to him… basically what can he really do? Other than knowing that the people are angry, what else can he really do? He’s basically so very out of touch. His team is so basically incompetent. I am so not expecting him to change anything at all.

The PM wants people to make babies, but fucking and having a baby is not the same. He doesn’t seem to care, he just wants babies. And what about our jobs, our lifestyles? Who’d fuck care?

I have have enough of his nosense… What land of opportunities?

I didn’t go to his page… I am afraid that I can’t control my anger and start commenting rubbish. LOL~ He’s the PM, but he has lost touch, and he has a team that loses touch with the grounds; and it’d be very difficult to drag him back to solid ground. So much for Lee Kuan Yew’s son…

Seriously, I have no confidence in this PM. His ‘internal change’ is like taking forever. LOL~

I try to keep myself busy… because meeting girls and making love, I would have no time to think of Kate and my body. Seriously, I don’t feel well… and every now and then, I thought of death itself. Fuck… the eventual unavoidable death…? I feel so very wrong…

I can’t forget Kate this life… I am destined to remember her forever. But that doesn’t mean I can’t try to divert my attention elsewhere, and sex is a good way to create a diversion.

But seriously…  I lust after a great romance… I want a woman the type shown in Japanese drama… gentle, lovely, romantic and loves the man from the heart and soul… if I can meet her… the search will be over, even if she is not Kate… she deserves my love. Yeah, I know this type of girls only exist in drama series… this type of romance only exists in drama series… but this type of man exists in real life… Me lor.

Something is definitely wrong with me…

I really don’t know.

My name is Scope…

…and I can’t remember anything.

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