[It’s time to have a new logo. So… I’d need one for applying jobs while looking at products to sell. After all, I am an experienced salesperson. Can I rely on CDC for a proper career? Since I am not taking over Dad… I’d need to find my way around. The new logo has replaced the old one at Facebook.]

Creativity is not just about attempts, it’s about breaking free.

The play at EDMW temporarily diluted everything. But that was enough time. I found Singaporeans’ understanding of love very lacking, it must be due to culture. Their defensive manner is ignored, since there is no need to mind over a known factor. There might be slim but tough possibility to raise Project S since there have been offline and online subtle interests, the catch is how to raise 20 people all in one go and unite them. EDMW… no matter the backgrounds of these people… mostly immature folks.

Project S and myself are probably limus tests to showcase Singaporean failure and… sadly, the reason for the rise of Jack Neo, Durai, Ming Yee, Andy Ong and the likes. I consider this a governmental issue… a failure in social engineering… I suppose this is the success of a failed social engineering.

Samples from EDMW are thoroughly analysed.

I am hungry for the move to Europe eventually. While I may not live long enough to see what to materialize… my children shalt have a chance, a choice, a better chance and choice than me in an European ground to make everything works for them. They will fly… with my genetic blessings.

For now, I have to rebuild the life wrecked by Cat, and it’s not easy… though it’s not easy, I have no choice either. I have too many things needing to be done. I must discard Cat, else both of us will fail. She is all for destruction and not construction. But her life is threatened by the Northern threats… It makes it very difficult to send her on the way of such known and terrible risk she will not be surviving.

The price of being a good man… …

The Nuclear Plants… … I’d need those fools to buy me more time… It’d be a battle between fools, though this idea cannot be removed, it can be dragged. Ghadaffi is much weakened, even without further bombardments… his situation will be very risky and I doubt he’d hold onto power for very long. He has no way to reward those who raped and killed their own countrymen in the name of blind havoc, and he will have no more trust to the international community. Therefore, if the military doesn’t kill him, peace will.

The energy situation will become very dire not only for Singapore… but the world. War is definitely on the card, and I don’t mean… small wars. I am looking forward eagerly for something much bigger.

An armed era… will be nemesis for the world, but not to me… It’d be a dream comes true.

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[Trying to be funny… They say creativity is about attempts… but on the other side of the coin… can the stupid audience blend in? LOL~ Kiss… and tell. I have much regrets in my life, but never regretted for being creative. ^.^]
很想给凯瑟琳电邮说些心事儿……但EDMW内接触新加坡思维下的结果让我感觉不是很好。小人的思维太浓密,而且……观察了凯瑟琳周围的男生群和她的私人活动……应该是被‘带烂了’的。如此越来越格格不入,我们的距离终究太远了。高雅和低俗……这个我很难妥协。EDMW内的女生,谈笑风生还可以,交往的话……没有兴趣;但胡说八道排解思绪下,我越来越排斥凯瑟琳和所谓的命中注定。以凯瑟琳的性格,她也永远不会了解我,如此连知心朋友也当不成的女人如何能是命中注定的她?

我太过成熟,她太过不成熟,不可能会了解我心里在想什么的。

我很想再找伴侣,但心里又有些恐惧。

新加坡人……真是一群没有出息的垃圾……要我找新加坡伴侣,我真的无法想像。小人啦,垃圾啦,俗里俗气啦,幼稚啦……被拒绝是无所谓的,是理所当然的,是应该的,因为我真的很难接受这里的女生。也许……天下的女生都是一样的吧……高雅有内涵深度的女人在新加坡太稀有了,我感觉很难……我对凯瑟琳的梦想被她彻底粉碎了。她变得令我……难以接受。但心里却一直不愿放下……人真的那么矛盾吗?

我也说不上原因。这只是一份感觉。对于爱情,我只能跟着感觉走……但这次……我不愿意继续走下去。理智告诉我,凯瑟琳变得太彻底,我对她的爱虽然强烈但……我感觉这注定是场个人悲剧。

我好不容易才逐渐摆脱小猫的灾难性牵挂,要我迈向这个悲剧……我不愿意。

但今晚很感触的。

应付小人是新加坡日日必做的一件事儿。这里的文化太低俗太丑陋,我需要到欧洲去……就让这个小岛‘沉下去’算了。反正这里根本不爱惜人才。政府……我已经不怎么指望了。这次的大选……这样的‘人才’都敢搬到台面……还能有什么指望?我又不是呆子……

最近听EDMW说香港一伙人要拍新加坡1965的政治片子。我是义愤填膺……接着那个王八蛋狼导演,新加坡人又有机会被大大的砍一次菜头了。这种戏在国外哪会有人以为有看头?分明是冲愚蠢的新加坡人来着。李光耀……建国那么多年,搞出来的就是一群白痴菜头,连国际片子也要外国吸血鬼拍和用外国的演员……新加坡就真的无人了?这就是间接侮辱李光耀的一种做法。说这个李光耀治国数十年,搞出来的都是凯子……凯子文化呗~不用精明的领导,什么垃圾都能搞出这样的局面。当然,我是抵制这类侮辱新加坡人智商,强奸新加坡人情商的所作所为的。

但估计还是会有一大票菜头争着被砍。

这就是新加坡人。

李光耀的面子……剩不了多少了。要是电检局拒绝了这部片子,立马应该会计划流产……因为这片子估计本来就是来骗新加坡白痴们的钱的。‘两支枪’的教训看来起不了作用的……这个‘两支枪’也是个垃圾……

为了钱……新加坡人什么做不出来?再下贱的事儿都可能……我相当鄙视新加坡人的情操。根本就是垃圾……只会欺负自己人,真的遇事儿的时候枪口一致对内。梁智强就是这类。这些人……是社会动荡的根源,不能不小视之。

李光耀……其实他已经失败了。现在大家看着这个总理……都在看他堕落着。而我懒得发言。因为我只要准备撤离到欧洲的项目就好了。这里迟早也不是我的问题。

估计不少人也会告诉凯瑟琳我这个那个吧……别人说我什么都无所谓的,但我很在意她。但我也知道,她不过是个孩子。

十六年了……不是我在凯瑟琳身边守候着她,人千年修行却能一夜成魔,何况一个无知的女生……一个女人……幸亏是在小猫出事儿离开后才再度找到她……否则又更加复杂。本来……在凯瑟琳身边的应该是我,本来她应该是个女皇,高贵典雅,谈吐精深……但现在的她……本来的话,现在的我们早已经移民了吧……很多事儿都会改变,我也许也无法达到如今的成熟度……修行,不一定要在寺庙中,其实七情六欲本来就是天赐的。最近……

最近又莫名其妙梦见了凯瑟琳。而且是场恶梦……很清楚的梦……我和她到了一个地方,那个地方有好多房间,那里有一个游戏,凯瑟琳就在其中一个房间,走廊上好多人……我拼命找,跑啊跑的……忍不住喊了“凯瑟琳,你到底在哪里啊!!!”。走廊上的人回过头笑了……我继续找,继续跑着,但我开了门,一扇接一扇不停地开,终于找到她……但现实生活中,我失去了她。找不回来了。

真是场恶梦……

想找份什么工作,忙一下也许心情会好些吧……希望那个胖子会真心对她。反正新加坡……也耐不了多久了。

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