Angry Bird And The Tasty Abalone.

People don’t realise how much I have saved learning to do images for myself than going to a professional photographer… To hell with what those cyber-trashes would mock for hack of my business. But Yaw Shin Leong’s ‘no comment‘ is poorly made when this has become a public concern and he is an MP; responsibility and accountability he said… the fact is, till now WP is offering a total black-out that when Yaw was given the chance to say yes or no, he said nothing#1. The cloak of darkness in the age of new media is very ironic for a party that questions the incumbent for transparency and accountability…

OK. They also delete comments on facebooks.

Can’t say I am not disappointed with Yaw’s response. His possible affair with Angela tests against his integrity and character for the public job. You just can’t go around screwing people’s wives, keep absolutely quiet and hope that the world just forget the matter. If you want to screw PAP hard, you have to be able to tackle the publicity harder, and maintaining silence over such a dire matter is not professional. Or is he waiting to appease his wife and for Angela to abort so that he can finally claim ‘innocent’?

So here’s the fact… WP screws up big time on accountability and responsibility in my honest opinion in this matter. Be it in USA’s Clinton affair or the many mistress issues with China officials, such affairs are directly linked to the leadership quality and appraisal so how can Yaw have no comment? What is so special with Singapore or WP?

But even Jack Neo would fight it till the end with Foyce… I see no reason why Yaw won’t take a shot in self-defence.

To me… silence when given a chance to refute means yes. Promoting confusion among supporters shows Yaw lack leadership, in this Yes or No issue there is no room for ‘no comment’. The outburst by Wang Lin, Yaw’s wife, on facebook is understandable. But the issue is not about how reporters reported what they got, the issue is WP shuts up when they need to offer a clear stance. This matter also shows the internal weakness of WP to be a ‘co-driver’ that when it cannot even check upon itself… how can it be relied to check on PAP?

So whether Yaw really fucked Angela to pregnancy or not, WP fails public expectation. They don’t care about people’s concerns… they choose to ignore and remain silent. Then how are they going to check on PAP? PAP would just ignore and offer ’no comment’ on anything as well. It’s really hilarious…

Democracy… power to the people… in the end, they still choose a party that has no answer for them. This is why I never bothered about democracy… even my blog is more liberal than Yaw’s facebook since I don’t really delete comments. Besides, I never believed in slogans. Glenda Han can yell to Scope she is a fucking virgin but… slogan is slogan#2.

It doesn’t mean there is no privacy for MPs. But on such critical issue that guides decision making process… such as integrity and character, Yaw… you must make a stand. But you didn’t. Why?

Anyway, I am surprised ‘Angry Bird’ becomes famous in this period of tasty abalones. Everywhere I go I see red lumps of birds. The significance is… I still don’t know why people are crazy about Hello Kitties. So the madness over Angry Bird is also hard to understand.

Quietly… for a guy’s blog in Singapore, without much promotion, without sticking to the trend, and talking so much rubbish, and not a sex blog, and with no friendly supports… Scope’s blog has hit 121,603 counts. I consider that amazing since I am not really a public figure, and at times, I don’t blog at all. Well… welcome to the real world. I wonder how long will it take to crawl to a million hits. Thanks goodness, I am not into socio politico stuffs. But that doesn’t mean I don’t have my opinions on current affairs.

You know… current affairs such as whose bird penetrates whose abalones… LOL~

Sex… it always sells.

中国春晚别具匠心，机械的荧幕舞台真是豪华，感叹中国财力雄厚……但也没忘了中国如今的内部矛盾已经相当的紧张了。希望在北京的她一切安好。春晚的节目文化气息还是那么浓郁，这是新加坡根本无法相提并论的。越看春晚越感慨，感慨自己必须在新加坡浪费宝贵的时间……默默无为。这真是英雄寂寞难耐也。

关于老Yaw的丑闻，坦白说……所谓的真相其实就是群众相信的事实#3。老Yaw没有捉进机会澄清那是很愚蠢的。他不澄清就会演变成事实。你管他事实是什么，只要大家相信就是了。

不过我估计谣传是真的。

那也真的太恶心了。因为老Yaw不算是帅哥，那个女的也不算是美女，这真的是‘丑闻’。工人党现在也成了丑闻天堂了。本土政治就需要这样的刺激才有趣。其实我个人相信行动党那里也有相当多的丑闻，不是不暴只是时辰未到。呵呵呵~

新春佳节……

最近去应征了，看来是了无音讯了……这种石沉大海的滋味儿真不好受；特不好受的就是听说这工资还算不错。可惜，心疼，难过~但对于求职我本来也不抱很大希望。只是走了一个宝，在新加坡要来多一个就比较困难。这里市场小，机会少，现在又蹦出来那么多外国精英抢饭碗，所以大家都叫苦。

我觉得很莫名其妙。新加坡地方那么小，问题那么多，民间只懂得呱呱叫，真的要有领导办事儿的却总是来来去去那几个饭桶，然后继续呱呱叫叫个不停，叫个风生水起，风起云涌，风云变色~这就是新加坡人的怪风格。除了张口呱呱叫别的都不懂了。然后行动党又假假说些无聊的好话安抚安抚，大选时又是乱七八糟乱乱充一批饭桶入国会~这闹剧我看了三十年，一遍又一遍，一点新鲜感都没有了。结果穷人继续穷，方案继续没有，上面的还在挖金矿，看得老男人老子是手痒痒。哈哈哈~

哎呀~新加坡人哭爹喊娘的有个屁用！

如今工人党，老Yaw一出事儿众口无声，靠一个哑巴政党怎么牵制行动党的乱来来为民谋福利？就一些低能儿连方案也不可能会有几个就想在国会装模作样，结果还不是苦了百姓？

这个死周杰伦……偏偏这时候播出他那种令人伤感的歌。

政治就是这样的。要改变就必须不拘一格，就必须破格录用真正的人才。来临的金融危机不是小事儿。光中国内部的那个洞就能坑死全世界！欧债算个老几？到时候全球大萧条~哈哈哈~不过最令人担心的还是中国的内乱。现在已经到了小规模的大规模造反的情况……虽说一路来都有零星的造反，但如今已经到了超级敏感的阶段了。而新加坡……新加坡的政治，恕老男人直言，自开国到现在越来越阶级化#4。难道穷喇叭就不响了？难道人才只有那些脑满肠肥的才是？这新加坡的阶级化不比殖民地时期的逊色。也就是如此，一个饭桶才会领导新加坡成为日军的俘虏。

阶级斗争……本来应该在封建转型成共和就该结束的。但新加坡共和国还是搞阶级，搞以金钱衡量的精英阶级制。

那请问，那么多问题现有的人才能处理吗？

虽然李小龙总理是道歉了，但事实终归是人才还是没有，问题是雪上加霜，百姓抱怨，后来就成了政治动荡。问题根本上还是没有解决。李小龙总理的道歉不是万能药，现实是我们必须有这样的人才治理国家才行，而不是行动党随随便便拉了些莫名其妙空话废话一箩筐的老是胡说八道玩数字游戏玩到连自己都被搞到头晕脑胀……实质的问题还是没有解决，结果行动党一日日衰弱。真是TMD可笑。

共和国……就是希望以实力挑大梁而不是根据一小撮人的意愿随便抛砖希望引玉结果引来的都是豺狼虎豹……薪水虽然调低了那么一点点，但无论多少薪水，要是政府无能那还是太多的。解决无能的唯一方法就是注重人才。但这个和放屁是一样的。谁都知道屁是臭的还是照放不误。

所以，新加坡还有什么前途？2016年大选，要是反对党不争气，行动党又是随便捉几个人组织无聊的无能政府……悲哀啊！行动党，您好歹钱多多，历史悠久，难道就不能振作？现在搞到四处邪魔歪道云云……

想到那个死梁阿强居然还敢拍什么社会片……就他那种德性……真想着要呕~

我老子那个时代好啊！他小子这个时代不好啊！我们的孙子不知道时代怎好啊！叫苦啊，叫啥听啊！

我每次想到新加坡，都很难过。

#1 Now that the news has gone out of cyberspace, would it have been better than ‘no comment’? I think so.

#2 Nay~ I am not saying Glenda Han is not a virgin. My problem?

#3 The truth is usually what appears so. Man can even lie to himself…

#4 Thanks to PAP’s focus on money… their candidates always come from the rich scholars, merchants and… the problematic layer in the society has NO representative! And not only that, if a nobody is talented, the PAP rather let idiots run the show… That’s how the $8 minister comes about… It’s really a sad situation.

Evangalical Rubbish In A Church.

True that I am in love with a married woman myself, but I can’t accept Angela Oon’s affair with Yaw Shin Leong. I simply detest sluts, and it is horrible that Yaw was rumored to have made Angela pregnant, and Angela is married. If this rumor is true, if the Tremeritus report is true… I find Yaw disgusting. That’s because the report claimed Yaw has been sleeping around with other women presumably after he was married. And… Angela is not really pretty. Glenda Han is pretty, not Angela, and Lilian Lee is cute… chubby.

That’s the reason why I can’t approach Kate. I have zero resistance against her, and I cannot let her like me, so I have calculated what to say to her and be sweet to her at the same time. Naturally, we cannot meet…

To be honest, I don’t really care what women Yaw fucked if Kate isn’t involved. I don’t really care about the rest of local women.

Workers’ Party will have to clarify the matter. And do I think it’s real… I bet the rumor is real.

My love for a married woman is dangerous… because the society is crazy. But since I don’t care about the society… She has chosen… to discard me and she now belongs to that man. An affair… is never what I have wanted. Kate should know for as long as I breath, I can’t forget her. It’s going to be an eternal torment. Maybe I am too soft, but if she is married, she cannot like me; especially if she enjoys the marriage.  After all, she knew I like her back then, yet she still chose that plump immature looking whatever. What can I say?

What I understand of myself is… I don’t wish to be Yaw, and I don’t want Kate to be Angela. I am really too nice. I send a monthly electronic rose to her but never will I step closer. Love is not having sex with Kate, love is… an eternal feeling, you don’t even need to touch. If the rumor is true, Yaw is sickening… disgusting… dishonorable. Anyway, he has changed too much since primary school time; I am a moderate, so be it opposition or incumbent, as long as it is wrong, I’d condemn, as long as they do right, I’d praise. In this case, if Yaw can’t give a satisfactory explanation to clarify things… Just too bad.

Would I give up being an MP for Kate… if I were in Yaw’s position?

I would. I definitely would. If I had married Kate, would I stray. I definitely won’t. That’s how important Kate is to me.  She is special, I knew it when I first met her. Would I want to interfere in her marriage? No. I am too noble to want that, so I stay away. I can’t expect Yaw or Jack Neo to do the same. Jack Neo is a complete jackass… Yaw is a rumored jackass. And I am wondering what his mother would be suggesting. I am beginning to wonder if Glenda Han and Yaw made love. That would be explosive. LOL~

On what basis do I guess the rumor is true? At least Yaw is starting to delete even my message to him on facebook; and there is a reverend Chua in this story who never denied when asked. There are more than one informant. And most importantly, Yaw being internet-savvy did not clarify but delete related messages. So… Angela should be a slut. If so, Angela is cheap… If so that WP has been aware of this and Yaw still got his political post, WP’s credibility must be… hit very hard. There is another disgusting asshole in this game: Chia Ti Lik. How can Angela betray her husband? And how can such a woman be allowed to stand as candidate? Has WP been so short of talents that they need a slut?

That’s why I have wanted to join a viable opposition… the next PAP to be exact. This havoc of dubious personalities is not good for the state. Yes. We are all frustrated by PAP’s recklessness, by the grassroots’ arrogance… but that doesn’t mean we try to remove a bad apple so that another bad apple comes. I kind of see PAP soon to be a thing of the past as the next generations of voters come in. They don’t like the mess. Who does? We need people of talents, with moral bearings…

What will happen to that ‘used’ woman? What will happen to the husband? How can Covenant Evangelical Free Church stay silent and cover up such ugliness? They are all question marks. I feel for Angela’s husband… neither he said a thing so far; I presume the reporters would have reached him for comments. Nothing so far. So how can this rumor not be real?

How is WP going to handle this? They have to expel Yaw somehow… just as the Italians wanted the sex president out. Responsibility and accountability are not just lip service.

Disgusting… The more I think about this rumor, the more revolting. After all, Yaw was a schoolmate. I still remember that plump boy and his anxious mother. Even Kate… Kate has changed too.

Suddenly I feel life is so short.

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There is another reason why I believe the rumor to be true, that’s given my knowing of Yaw during JC days. I was aware that he probably started dating girls since; Though he is not exactly the attractive sort, I kind of believe he has his way with women. So here, I am totally not surprised he made Angela Oon, a married woman, pregnant. And I am not surprised that WP already was aware of his adventures. So I have to assume the rumor is true. Still, the world is waiting for Yaw to explain and we wait.

Seriously, I have no love for an womanizer, MP or no MP. Well…

Perhaps the rumor is not true. Whatever.

It’s Chinese New Year. Hopefully everything will go well for me this year.

Whenever there is a scandal, hits will go up. So what sells? Scandal, especially those revolving sex sex sex sex sex… And it’s fun to see hit counts fly.

To be honest, I am very frustrated with PAP’s governance, but I doubt WP would be a nice replacement. Till now, the parliament performance shows they are not really competent. What happiness index, what crap salary review debate… WP definitely lacks political talents. Yaw’s matter, no matter if it is true won’t, however, disrupt opposition’s progress politically. After all, it’s PAP’s own problems which have fueled opposition’s gains… not because opposition is a viable front. It is commendable that Lui Tuck Yew has performed reasonably well in the recent MRT saga but he still needs to find a way out for transportation. And I personally see a need to slash ticket prices given that the maintenance is reportedly only 8%… He is not paid that much to merely follow up.

Lawrence Wong also has pointed out something about WP’s salary stance which is pretty funny. This is a plus. But still… Even after the review, the salary is still too high IF they can’t perform.

This is the current sad state of Singapore’s political front. We are forced to pay for mediocrity and there is no alternative. That’s why I see the need to step forward given the chance. This cannot go on… But the appropriate team is not like mortally granted, it’d be the will of heaven to save this puny state.

Chinese New Year… To be honest, I like Chinese New Year… Time seems to be standing still for a while and is happier.

A Blogger’s Call.

Due to some reasons, the maid left this morning and the maid agency was heard to have chastised the crying maid. I wonder if she’d return to the household if she expressed regrets since mother would definitely use her help#1, and I have no grudge towards her. This morning, I heard she and mother talking rather louder than usual… Sometimes, I pity the maid for being far away from her homeland, but if she cannot adapt, then…

I was reading about Silver Ang and Xiaxue’s little issue at EDMW. Both were bloggers out for fame and money, both… were none of my business. I guess they jolly well know we are merely bystanders watching a show. It seems that Qiuting is breaking with Silver Ang as well. But experience tells me that this might be all cooked up to promote publicity, so… Whether they really fight or what… We have plenty of such Singaporean silly fights all over cyberspace, and the fuse of this explosion is pretty hard to understand…

Singaporeans… they can blow a world up for peanuts. I simply can’t understand them. Singaporean girls… what is going on in their puny brains?

Yeah… As one might have guessed… I am only bothered about Kate’s thinking, I don’t really care about the rest of Singaporean chicks.

In Malaysia, there was this incest story I just read. It’s a father who was a soldier who raped his own daughter… when you should care and love your own children, so… this is so unacceptable. I don’t like soldiers anyway… To me, soldiers and hooligans usually have little difference. They don’t make cow sense. And when they perform, they usually perform shits for the society. Otherwise, they are useless money taking bunch of craps.

THB told me she was fine when I feel that she is still somehow stuck in her previous relationship. I feel for her somewhat because of my feelings for Kate. In a way… THB and I are ‘enjoying’ similar issue with the hearts. Emotional attachments… of memories and hope once so dear and close, and she didn’t want a divorce and forced herself to face an error she has committed. She is a pretty strong character, perhaps to the point of being quite naive. But she is a woman now.

Blogging is a pleasure, and this blog deals with not just rants… but creative rants in a very special manner. I use this to entertain myself, and I don’t care what the world fuck thinks. To be honest, will the world really care for me? No. That’s it. Why should I care for a world that doesn’t really care for you? That’s probably the most retarded concern in blogging. This is my blog, you’d see my faces all over the blog, it’s only nature. Whether people like it or not, or however they think, or what trashy conclusions they have for the blog…

They are not me. I don’t need them to visit this blog. I don’t care. They have no say of what I should and shouldn’t blog about and in what manner. And in my blog, I have my rules.

I don’t really like Singaporeans. They score very low for culture, they are unexposed and they can’t assess things with common sense.

I don’t really care about the Blog Queen as she won’t care about me. In the Ministry of Love and Justice, this world is detached from the ugliness beyond. LOL~

Silver Ang, Qiuting and Xiaxue… I scanned  the piece Silver blogged for Qiuting and wondered why she didn’t simply call Qiuting up instead. Unlike what Silver has declared, I don’t blog for anyone else other than almighty me. LOL~ So I don’t really care if people think I am an attention seeker or what. As usual since the days of XTs… computer or internet, they are all tools for entertainment. It wasn’t till in the 90s when internet became heavily commercialised and then… blog happened after forums made their way into our lives. Increasingly, commercial blogging has become a media industry by itself that…we have now more or less an ‘industry of online fame seekers’ or professional attention seekers. It’s actually quite a remarkable process because since my first XT till now… it has been only about 20 years for a brand new industry to take root.

Needless to say, the craziness of cyberspace during this period escalates. When money is involved, alot of things can’t be helped. Politics evolved and new media comes to stay. Everyone including idiots has a say. And everyone yearns to be heard and favored.

This is the perculiar era where the start of many things started many things and Scope’s blog was started… for Scope’s pleasure only.

There is no such one as Scope. It’s a creation from nothing to something, and a blog that roots to only cyberspace… without the need of any mortal credibility. Without the need of credibility, it simply can’t be sued. See?

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This is no socio politico blog. For fuck?

During the years of blogging, I have tried many things, and sometimes… I was at a loss of what to blog… how to blog till I feel what normally shouldn’t be. I don’t want to go the usual stupid factual line, nor do I wish to do a sex blog. I want to make Scope colorful.

Nowadays whenever I read about death… I frown. If it is a day that will come to all… to my loved ones… I know I’d feel horrible for them, I know I’d feel heartbroken, I’d miss them. So… everyday I see my parents… I look at them hard, I hug them, I know I should when they are still around. I know I care. I want all of them alive.

How long more will we be together in this dimension?

And Kate#2… She’d face death too. I hate this thought. It’s disgusting.

I frown upon life… Why must there be such an end? What is beyond death? From the day I was aware as a baby I wish I could break this mystery. I had seen ghosts… but yet I still cannot accept afterlife… I still cannot understand afterlife. If a personality is a combination of physical energy, reincarnation should be possible. If the universe is really revolving itself… the right combination of energy will bring me back… but trapped in a body… or… is our soul merely the working brain? Physically speaking, anti-matter dictates that if my soul is a combination of energy order, if this order is somehow repeated in a body, it is called a soul… and I’d live again… as a random creature. Given the working body… our identity is our soul, our soul is meaningless without the body’s functions to bring about awareness… or what we call life.

This is also the basic understanding now used in teleportation whereby if… you can break down a person at location A and reconstruct a person at location B, you will be ‘reincarnated’ at the new location… or you call that teleportation. But… why in the first place do you break down a person? Why can’t you not break down a person but ‘reconstruct’ yet another you? But is that new you the old you?

If there is a reincarnation… if you travel back in time to a previous you; while you are the reincarnation of that you, but you are not that you. Simple. He will not control your limbs, you can even eat each other.

So… This is the challenge of anti-matter… that if time travelling is possible… you are adding to an equation another similar set of variables– you, that by right with time he’d die… and be reassembled to be you at T+t. But you can go back time… You will be disrupting equilibrium; You will be forcing anti-matter to rebalance the universe… Which is, at T+t, you must be removed as you remove yourself to time T. Which means… T to the power of infinity makes time travel possible, theoretically speaking… because you behave in a set of time not in time T itself. That means you possibly exist in the summation of T.

Which is… the only way to travel back time… T(You1)+(T+t)(You2)=Summation of T. That when Summation of T- (T+t)(You2)=T(You1), when it means you are a function of T.

In time travel, using anti-matter, we see a very simple relationship… When the summation of T=0, you never existed. Summation of T is matter state. If you at now plus you at six hours later plus together, your existence is summation of T. For time travel to be possible, you have to keep (T+t)(You2) constant while lessening the substance called Summation of T. Which is, how? This has been puzzling me for quite some time. This expression is you at now is always part of your existence, which is… if You2 (You now lah) is a constant energy consolidation called matter, to equal You1 (you back then)… neutralizing the energy equation of the function T…

I am stuck at this point.

Actually time travelling model is made possibly easier by realising  anti-matter doesn’t just exist in time T but in the summation of T. If anti-matter exists in T and T+t respectively, you will never see yourself. This understanding also helps explain the universe… that it is neither expanding nor contracting but is a definite mass across T. The universe is travelling… not fluctuating. The reason is, anti-matter. A reordering occurs when movement occurs. It is likely that the universe itself is rotating and the entire systems are rotating together. If there is a definite mass, if there is a rotation… there is a limit. Yes. Universe has a limit.

What contains the universe… I have been asking myself ever since primary school times…

Our existence is so strange… I might have an IQ of over 190, but I don’t have the relevant training. It’s not possible in Singapore. This place sucks. This retarded population… nobody can understand what I am driving at.

Physically speaking, immortality is possible. However, it is near impossible. Becausing biologically speaking, we have no controls over the other mechanics… namely, the ‘souls’ of bateria and the mechanics of virus. The DNA maps a path my body ‘travels’ similar to my Dad and Mum’s. Which is, the code changes accordingly to a stimulus and so that it always equals 1, a constant. Figuratively speaking, eventually in order to balance, a -1 will come so that it becomes 0… death. So that’s how our genes are switched on and off… constantly changing in an order. And what we gain, we lose. There is no way we can control the factors. Hence physics shows immortality is possible, but… near impossible.

Which is… if your genetic mapping decides that at forty years of old you will die, in order to switch that off, you MUST know the key! And you don’t. Because nobody at now can read the codes constantly. At certain age, the thymus retires… While our brains are aware, yet we cannot switch it on or off. It doesn’t work that way, and death is imminent. The only way I figure out how my body works is… It kills everything as much as possible. Resets everything… reboots everything. But that, you will have to secrete the right enzymes or chemicals; and you have no control.

The first step to stop death is to stop aging. The first step to time traveling… is to quantify everything. So… accidental time travelling is indeed possible, especially if the universe is indeed rotating together. There must exist a point of ‘conflicts’. There is no such thing as together forever… there must be a point of conflict, thus opening up an energy flux… a gate to another time. It must be a tremendous conflict… And it is beyond man. Gosh… Or maybe it is within man’s power.

What is the catch?

Hmmm… … Do you have an idea?

#1 The maid left, a new maid is replacing her. It seems that she has said not so nice things about us which are not true… Well… I don’t blame her. She will of course paint herself white. Why not?
#2 Sigh…

Life is Cunnilingus.

The Ministerial Pay Review is making news, but I am more bothered about the fact of death…  We have all taken living for granted, or… nobody really understands how not to die. Without death, we’d have infinite time to squander away, and that is infinite wealth. But of course… Earth will be too crowded, so population has to be curtailed so that people fuck without pregnancy. But that is something else, because right now right here, I am facing death… as an immortal.

Seeing a relative’s last moment is not easy. Seeing the end of a system… of an existence is not easy.

While many pondered the meaning of life, nobody can live beyond death even if he knows the meaning.

The question about Ministerial Pay is really whether they are worth the money. Decades of performance shows enough… Singapore is declining, Singaporeans’ livelihood threatened under the elites, and yet… there are people who still reckon the need for elites to rule. Singaporeans… ain’t they idiots?

Tremeritus is up and running. It’s better than Theonlinecitizen whereby those assholes from EDMW don’t seem to influence TRE, so people do have a voice at TRE as compared to TOC. TOC is creepy, seemingly linked to SPH as EDMW is. And both are hence substandard in my view. Restriction of freedom of speech for TOC is already a big no no. So what some assholes don’t welcome me at TOC? It is not as if TOC enjoys a monopoly. LOL~ But so said, the real strength of internet sites as EDMW and TOC and even TRE… they are still a meagre force in this game, and support or bashings from them will change little to your political standing because the real issue is still the general election by more people not hooked up by the socio political sites.

Use your brain… if TRE or TOC were to hook up everyone, it’d crush the depleted bandwave… the site will be overloaded. That was why Temasekreview can’t push on.

Whatever it is… before death comes knocking, I’d try to do good… as good as possible.

Observation shows… unlikely Kate is dropping by this blog… which is good. So the business is ended. I had and have gone crazy for her. She is undoubtedly the woman of my life. It’s sad we cannot be together. It’s the reason why I can’t fall in love… My love lasts forever, and no girls seemingly last forever. I am still… feeling cold at times… but I’d manage. We have a state to secure… or a plan to evacuate. Kate… Maybe one day she’d realise how sweet my love for her is. I really don’t know the future… but the fortune teller remarked she is the destined woman… and so she is.

Workers’ Party… seemingly now a small closed up society; at least that’s how probably Jee Say sees it. But Jee Say has viewed things probably too radically. It is called Pride. Sylvia didn”t give him a chance… nope… she didn’t offer face, and he was the ex-Prime Minister’s secretary. A guy of that experience or background probably expects much more to be offered merely by paper qualification. Is it a habit? Well… doesn’t matter. Fact is, Jee Say is Jee Say, situation is situation. If Jee Say cannot see situation as it is, if he thinks political life will be easier with WP, he’s not in the right mindset for a change. Yes yes yes… things ain”t looking good for PAP. But that’s not because they don’t have Jee Says. There are plenty of Jee Says in PAP. In fact, PAP decides it’s a policy to give scholarship…

Reality is, if Jee Say is a talent, he should have seen the need to struggle, to set up his own camp, and to be an enlightened leader. Getting angry with WP is useless, because the war is still… personal interest vs state interest.

That’s why when Yaw refuses to meet up, I am only so so so. Competition is based on situation… WP is thriving only because PAP fucked up too big times over the years. In terms of getting leaders, more Tin Pei Lings will be the delights to the oppositions, and showcases PAP’s complete arrogance that such a political moron can be raised as a leader. PAP obviously thinks nothing twice about questioning the intelligence of the people. Does the PM even care? LOL~

It is on such back of recklessness that Jee Say and many others should understand… nothing is spoonfed. Just because you have this qualification doesn’t mean you will go anywhere. That sort of thinking is PAP, and the people is rejecting this ridiculous idea that should have expired too long ago.

And WP”s success in Aljunid GRC shows that I have been on the right track of mind… We need an elite team to crush through all the obstacles… particularly when leadership of both PAP and WP is still considered weak.

Will PAP hence enhance its selection? I doubt so. It has too much of a habit to source for social scums now flooding the elite class. That’s particularly why PAP leadership has been so useless over the years. I have been sitting back and watching all these happening… while the pay increased and increased with more and more people waving angry hands. The beauty of watching chaos is never not entertaining… So the game is set on the PAP side, lacking good elements is a killer in this game. Particularly… Goh Chok Tong… he won’t change the style of competition in real, although he usually has changes on his month… calling for white knights and such but… He was a poor chap, got qualification and becomes rich… People of such class will usually see nothing of being an underdog. Money should be his guage of talent. LOL~

As for Lee Kuan Yew… if he still remembers the time when PAP rose and fought the colonial masters cum those chinese lovers, his experience is a random game. I very much doubt PM Lee Hsien Loong will choose talents for the merits of merely being talented.

It will be in my interest if WP can hasten the pace to seize power…

The key is talents… WP doesn’t have the talents to govern… not yet.

Why is the PAP failing… Simple. It is the incumbent, it doesn’t bother about talents, it takes politics and power for granted, and without grooming talented leaders… it can’t govern properly. The people are not exactly stupid… who wants to suffer taking the bitter pills so that the elites can be enriched for good or bad…

I will be a moderate… I will say what should be right, and then… … by right a new party will be formed, I will join it. Singapore’s population should not be just about one WP. Without talents, still Singapore will suffer from bad governance. So…

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Kate… I guess I have survived it again. I must slowly get my life back… I am now back at Sohu blogging… the origin of Scope’s blog. Somehow, blogging in a Chinese environment is much better than a Singaporean’s. Ask me if I have moved on… No, I haven’t. Loving Kate is the toughest challenge going nowhere in my life. She is definitely not the only woman in my life. She is just the destined significance that no matter what… I can’t shake loose. But I’d be fine.

Perhaps old enough… that extra man will die, and we’d meet again. I don’t really mind her being old and ugly. It’s the feel of her… the lingering feel of Kate when I first met her till now, till forever. Too bad she is not going to read this. Better not. Why is my love life so difficult? Because I am serious, that’s all.

It’s better if she doesn’t know about my heart. Right now, she is married. This is ridiculous.

Sometimes… Whatever.

I am not a happy man.

Singapore’s future is somewhat forfeited. Lee Kuan Yew puzzles me. Hsien Loong’s way is irrational. What have Mr Lee taught Lee Jnr all those years?  I am very sure both are clueless. I read the memoirs, I know.

Gently, I am letting go of everything. I need to run away. I have no choice. Singapore is a nightmare.

Kate’s loss is ridiculously huge. I’d have exchanged the world for her love. That is how significant Kate is to me.

But I am in no shape to embrace her as well.

Love… so important, so impossible.

I haven’t been to THB’s blog for a while, because somehow there is a technical error that prevents me from loading her site. Just as well… But I am very curious how she has gotten by.

Politics… Seriously, how the fuck is Singapore going forward with all the trash running loose running Singapore?

How the fuck would I know?

Scope… You have definitely made the wrong turn coming back to this tiny island. What can I do now? If I have to turn back time… I’d go back to when I had the chance to tell Kate… I love her.

The Libido Of Mortality.

There is a problem putting up the shop board and the incident is frustrating, that’s because we share the same contractor with other shops, we did the same things and the other shops already have the shop boards on except ours. Something is definitely wrong with the authority, so we may be going to see a minister to see how the issue can be resolved.

Singapore…

It is really sad that parents don’t see the need to migrate. Why are they willing to waste time with Singaporeans? Because they are senile?

Anyway, it’s not really my problem since I don’t tend the shop.

Gigi Leung’s marriage to a pale dick Sergio has stirred a small storm as the media condemned Sergio because he is poorer than Gigi. I don’t really understand why can’t Gigi choose to marry anyone she fancies? Is it because the public desires all women to be inclined to choose ‘ugly but rich’ dicks that we have to accomodate to such storms in a mean manner? It’s afterall their private issue; it’s sick to think that Gigi’s cunt must stick to social norm as well. Nevertheless, I am reserved with their relationship since… I doubt true love has been involved. Is Sergio really a variant gigolo leeching on Gigi? Who knows, who cares.

Jackass Neo is going to have his new movie… I am definitely going to boycott it… as usual. I really don’t see the rationale to waste good money to support a disgusting fatso’s junk film.

In my honest opinion, Jackass Neo is a fake, pretender, whatever… And he was once the most popular Singaporean; that’s so Singaporean. Completely idiotic.

Decided to do a CGP for Fallout: New Vegas.  And I particularly like to take Rose of Sharon Cassidy around in the game. There is something wrong with my keyboard. Some keys are extremely difficult to type. Such as the alphabet ‘P’. Maybe it’s time to change the keyboard. Yeah, there is a ‘light’ issue in the CGP, I consider that as a beauty of defect… or simply blatant laziness to redo.

Fallout: New Vegas is loaded with bugs, and it’s disgusting. I can only look forward to Fallout 4, since the DLCs don’t run properly as well. What I hope for in Fallout 4:

1. Bigger map with more adventures in every segment; more random encounters generated randomly everytime we visit the segment.

2. More recruitable NPCs who CAN die as in Fallout 3, and one or two can rap. Also random town folks can be killed at one segment only to have more randomly generated after some time at another segment. Global population should be set a maximum as X and minimum at Y over a period of time.

3. There should be thieves raiding your wallet and random robbery and guards for homes, including locks and safes that only store a maximum of 10 most important items. There hence should be a lost and found or guild to buy the stolen items back.

4. There should be a stock market with whatever benchmark, there should be a cinema where video clips can be watched if player buys the ticket. The movies can be course of actions chosen by the player, or in-game promotion of other games, or game guide.

5. The player should be able to build a home, there should be shops selling furnitures from cheap to expensive.  We should have random town folks walking around the shops.

6. There should be a town where there should be a court. This court will be where the player pays fines and applies for divorce. So there should be many NPCs for choice of spouses. And every spouse will have classified speech lines and perks for the player.

7. There should be more places without markers, and randomly generated villains for the court to issue bounties the player can hunt.

8. There should be a plane so that player can visit a land untouched by the nuclear war, and where there are thugs but killing is forbidden by law, and you can break the law and the police can come after you.

9. Since the timeline of the first Fallout game, it is unadvisable to drag further down the timeline so that it is about time even the communities should be around to rebuild America.  There should be rain and snow as well.

10. There should be much more quests in Fallout 4 with a longer storyline.

11. There should be weapon and armour factories which are attacked at interval by super mutants or raiders that the player can help in the resistance, that once a factory is taken the stock goes down and the price of items shoot up since supplies come from black market thereafter, and the quantity of (eg) ammo for sales will drop. The player shall then liberate the factories, again and again.

12. Item pricing should be decided by how much has been sold to the shops and the stock market on global basis.

13. There should be a bank to store money so that theft at home can be prevented. The bank hence can also be robbed by the player and earns global hatred. So the bank must be heavily guarded with long defended passage to the vault. There should hence be a black market for everything at exobitant price.

14. There should be alot more levels as in Fallout 2. And there should be a clear list of what have been shot and hunted.

15. Karma will decide who can be spouse, and a donation of 200,000 caps is possible for the map to install a new orphanage in a waste zone. Karma will also decide the ease of pickpocketing.

16. There should be a class of very very very tough enemies in a specific segment and missions (check out the way game ’Dark Star One’ offers missions at ports, Fallout 4 should have such thing as well).

17. Casinos and gambling dens are good ideas to lose and win big. (as the player’s money grows, prices of items and certain services are inflated accordingly to a max of a factor)

18. There should be tax collectors… who can be shot dead, so that the court will issue a bounty on your head in turn. The sentence for killing govt personnels can be reduced by quests involving brible wasteland authorities… (that means a way to spend big money) Judge and anyone can be shot dead as well, and town securities will come after you or bounty hunters and contracted mercs will do the same.

19. Adultery exists in the game, and the player has the chance of knowing the adultery and shoot man and woman involved. Adultery can be decided by karma and allowance given to wife (at interval of days) , player visits to home and talking to spouse will be counted and checked. Spouses who act as followers will have no chance of adultery. A random period of time be generated so that the spouse will not be at home but with the lover so that when player comes home, he/she will discover spouse not at home.  If a wife is ‘outgoing and adventurous’, the player can check gardens and nearby wasteland for her and lover, if wife is discreet sort, he can check the motel and cinema or shops, if the wife is reserved, he can check homes of others or… So the wife’s behavior is a wild card known only by the daily speech line. If all the spouses are killed, that means you are not a good husband… you (eg) don’t spend enough time with wife. If player doesn’t kill the spouse, the court can be used to divorce and opening the slot for another spouse. Which is… every spouse will have a potential lover. After divorce, the spouse and lover will move in to stay together. The lover will be generated only when check decides adultery occurs.

20. In Skyrim, it is an idea to invest in shops with a return, in Fallout 4, we can allow the player to set up shop with a push cart whereby the player will also have to deal with random gangs who come asking for collection money. There could be X gangs in the game, that if player resists will see a wave of gangsters trying to burn down the cart. The burning has a value, whereby every raid by the gangster will attempt to cover a value that when reached, the cart will be burnt. That means gangsters will come fighting with flamethrowers and grenades… It can be scripted in such a way that a shop is set up, a random remerk is broadcasted to the player that tomorrow a gang is coming to collect protection money and the shopkeeper has paged you. The item for sales will be the loots the player deposits with the shop. The player will be hiring 1 or 2 NPCs to serve the shop and guard against the raid.

The problem of Fallout: New Vegas is mainly not as well organized as Fallout 3. It is more boring and fun elements such as random encounters plus talon companies are all removed. After following the main quest, you are equally left dry. Given that the DLCs are bugged, I only attained the max levels of 30… even with Dead Money added.

The key to succeeding Fallout: New Vegas is to note that Usanagi will upgrade your SPECIALs, and if you need the money, go Central West of the map into Fiends’ territory and hunt them down. Then head to the gun runners to sell the items. The mutants at Black Mountain have the equipment for sales too. Buy all the ammo to convert into various ammo types at reloading benches if shops don’t sell enough of any one type. I personally prefer to get the home at Novac the suite at Lucky 38 is not only too big but also not convenient as you need to go through more loading screens.

Many glitches exist in Fallout: New Vegas whereby a great Khan advisor can disappear after a subquest and need the console to enable her back, and the deathclaws are extremely lethal and almost impossible to deal with singlehandedly.

The trick of dealing with deathclaws is to sneak upon them one by one with the help of two followers, saving and pray for critical attacks made on them. The quest at the Quarry cost me about 400 rounds of .357 magnum.

Since my favorite companion is Rose of Sharon Cassidy who is talkative and not like a zombie (Boone), I literally obliterate Silver Rush. Killing both Crimson Caravan boss and Silver Rush folks and resolving Sharon’s issue the ‘peaceful way’ will earn her both health increase and damage threshold perks. But heard that the health perk got a bug as well. Arrrgh~

With regards to weapons… Chinese assault rifles are no longer around in the game, the next best weapon would be Cowboy Repeater which is a sad alternative. The assault carbine might have higher DPS but the whole point with regards to combat in New Vegas is about making criticals.  So while the carbine burns clips faster, it usually doesn’t score critical hits as the repeater. The real alternative to the repeater would be the light machine gun that is powerful outside VATS.

And no matter what you have done for the Powder Gangers… it’s very hard to be idolized by them. So…

All in all… I am now looking very much forward to Fallout 4 and hope it’d be grand. Afterall, if Bethesda’s contract is to make a last Fallout before someone else makes something else… … Do it with pride. As Skyrim, Fallout: New Vegas’ boring plot makes replay rather tiring. Skyrim is ridiculous in that levels can be reached not by attacking but by skills increase. Hence I have given up on Skyrim. Yeah… I am a gamer. It’s probably the mark of 21th century, thanks to technological advances. I hope Fallout 4 would be something more or less… insatiable.

Seriously, the map should be much much bigger than the two Fallouts… with plenty of targets and surprises.

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[8 Jan 2012] 他们说二舅妈脑死了。早上五点左右，家里来了电话，还以为是老妹家出事儿了，想不到是二舅家……兰表姐过去常帮助我，但由于一次吵架我们有了误会。出于生辰避忌，迷信的母亲初时不打算让我去看二舅妈最后一面，但后来她还是打电话来让我到场了。我便开车赶到现场……二舅妈听说当时已经脑死。我面无表情。其实我根本都不知道该说什么，所以一声不吭，就这样随波逐流着的感觉周遭的气氛。还听说这些年二舅妈的胆固醇情况已经越来越好，想不到一夜就回魂乏术。

我虽然面无表情，但心里却不是滋味儿。理由很简单，我不想死。我也不想年迈的父母去世。这种无奈的情景看得我难免伤感，有点儿震撼，但绝对不是第一次接触……我必须知道救伤车召唤的号码早做准备。但……

我想到了我和小猫……我们若是临终，会有多少人来见我们最后一面？

就这样吧……让身体停留在二十四岁的阶段，不老不死该多好。

上述这个问题也许还有几十年的时间，但时光瞬间即逝，今天的我无奈地打着这篇稿子，明天的我可能正在做最后的挣扎……这就是人生；多么有限，短暂的人生。我一生的爱情，梦想，造诣在一瞬间就不再美丽，最后怎么死我自己真的不敢想象。人间的一切就如同过眼云烟，但我却实实在在活过，爱过，挣扎过。这间中的喜怒哀乐让我感觉眷念，让我不知道我是不是能够决定了却一切，化作一团青烟……

我只知道，我不想死，我的身体还不愿意死。二舅妈她也不愿意死……但她还是去了。

好可怕。我还有那么多想吃的美味儿……

而且，要是我不死，我还得面对凯瑟琳的死亡……她是凡人，她也会去的，也会化作一堆枯骨，世间的爱恨情仇也会随风而去；我们这一代人就这样被下一代取代了。所以……

所以我必须进化，不断进化，不断生存……虽然生命很无聊，但死亡代表着游戏的结束。我宁愿爱凯瑟琳千万年而痛苦千万年也不愿游戏结束。我太好玩了。什么游戏都不比生命来得有趣。

所以健康是无价的。

二舅妈啊……一路走好。真的，我很伤感。若死亡是必然的，她已经完成了一生的使命。然而我……我可能永远也无法面对死亡。我并没有流泪，因为我看过太多尸体，我真的不知道……

我也不想知道。也许无知是幸福的。我什么都知道了，反而越来越惆怅。

但二舅妈这最后一面我是必须去见的。因为我不希望二舅和兰表姐以为我绝情无义。人只要活着就必须背负很多莫名其妙的‘责任’或义务。这对向往逍遥自在的我，无疑是很矛盾的。其实我是个很长情的人……是个性情中人，对二舅妈的去世，我当然会遗憾。文字很难表达心里的五颜六色。

反正回来后，就留下这份遗憾在博客中。生命最好还是不要留白。就算多难，咬紧牙根还是得前进吧……

饿了。饿了的感觉还真好。

Hard Truths Without Transparency.

December… I usually like this time of the year when it is cool. But I still never got to see the snow. Sometimes I really hope I exist in a big country and I can just travel from one province to another, and I can meet a lot more different people than the usual craps in Singapore.

Recently, I don’t feel like sleeping. Yet I slept alot in the day. It’s not insomia, it’s just I don’t seem to appreciate sleeping. I am still breathing and alive. It’s like passing one day at a time towards death.

Yet… I am an immortal.

I don’t eat alot during dinner. I know I want the buffet at Marketplace Sogo, but I am tired of leaving home for it. I suddenly lose interest in many things. I have nothing to buy, I don’t know what to buy so I bought lottery tickets. I am becoming very strange. I still have the desire to feed… but that’s all.

I only know… It’s December and it’s cold. I like the cold.

That’s all.

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It’s been some time since I blogged. Billabong was having a sales, it was a good one because its T-shirts have quality, but I don’t especially like the designs. So I bought two T-shirts with better designs and one shorts. Somehow, my new number for about half a year sent me messages for marathons; I never participated in marathons, and am not likely to do so. Firstly, marathons are bad for health; it burns cells too fast. We have covered this cellular issue before. Most importantly, I don’t want to bump into Kate or her relatives in this sort of events. It’s doubly stupid to pay money to die faster… …

I didn’t take a peep at Kate. Maybe I should. But why should I?

I didn’t source for her pics. Not anymore. Her aging is freaking me out. I am not intending to freak out myself further with those updates.

I’d feel very sad… because when we first met, we were both so young. I am too used of she being the blushing lass… who couldn’t even speak to me properly.

EDMW again. There had been a slight surge of hits from that freaky forum of jerks.

It’s not so entertaining anymore. A bunch of losers… …

It’s raining. I feel like going out today. But where can I go? There is nothing happening in Singapore unless… and I am not interested in those junk bars, discos, and bla bla bla… Guess I missed out on life fucking those girls at the bars and discos… but I don’t like cheap girls. And STDs are freaking me out easily. So…

I dream of the day when I can leave this horrible boring stupid island of horrible boring stupid jerks.

That’s aspiring.

We have seen the lawyer, so Dad is leaving me with $1.5m of assets. I can’t grumble not because I am not greedy… but because I am not a big spender. This amount is like going to last me like forever. Dad is getting very old. I have no intention to curse him; parents are very important. They are the only people who don’t really intend to harm. And no matter what, I am not evil. So be it. $1.5m then… It’s not really much in this new world. Money to me has only that much meaning.

For now… … I wait.

Maybe I should drive to East Coast and take a break. I like the seas, I like the wind, I like the cold of December, so I like the cold wind when I am standing in its way. There is no typhoon in Singapore… what a waste.

Should I buy Fallout New Vegas? I was tempted to. But I didn’t. Because the graphics is bad, the gameplay is bad… Bethesda has to do something in Fallout 4 if they assume fans will go on chasing the series. Else, Fallout will expire, and Wasteland II should enter the picture. Yes. I am a gamer.

Mom just came in… and urged me to feed.  The satay at Clementi has changed… no longer that type of tasty sticks I had when I was… that small. I had a craving the other day so I went down, bought 15 sticks and… disappointed myself. Feeding is an important daily issue for me because… that’s where the last bit of joy is. And I am losing it.

我可能不会爱你。

最近没心情发帖，有空就到Yun那里。Yun发高烧，向公司请了两天假。下午看了Yun就到Elaine那里，本来还担心因为照顾Yun会传染她什么但一进门就看到一大束花和一盒巧克力。原来她同校有个男生喜欢上了傻丫头。我们把巧克力分吃了，Elaine和我就在客厅爱抚起来……兴致来了，我一把抱起了小丫头将她抛到了床上，折腾了足约一个半小时，虽然房间开着空调，我却汗流浃背。没办法只好洗澡去了。出来时，Elaine光着身子在上网，我把她拖入怀中……我很喜欢看Elaine的眼睛。水汪汪的，有一种很稚气的感觉。可这一过程并不顺利……

因为一不小心Elaine居然把在地上的安全套踩爆了。Elaine就是这样的一个小丫头……处理事情‘简单利落’，帮我除下安全套后随手就扔在地上~每次都这样。

“这样踩到了精液会不会爬进我的子宫啊？”

她这一问让我哭笑不得，但越发感觉她的可爱。我很想说‘会’，但……

就这样她紧紧张张到卫生间洗脚去了，原来她在读谢芷蕙和陈冠希XX的绯闻。近日网上比较轰动的也就是这类三八八卦。到底谢芷蕙是不是处女，这个很难说，但我没兴趣知道。我只知道只要对象是陈冠希肯定会轰动的。毕竟陈西瓜是条著名的淫虫……什么女人和陈西瓜缠上了，那个女人肯定被世人打成是……‘那个’。当然，由于似乎两人是主仆关系，不排除利用事件搞什么炒作。但炒作归炒作……红与不红，间中的因素相当多。不过这一时期，Cammi谢这个大名算是出了。

我帮她把笔记电脑关了，因为她一出来我就再拖她上了床在被窝中搂着。

这样的日子或许快结束了。理由其实很简单，为了方便上大学，Elaine的父母让她在大学附近租房子。大学结束了，Elaine就得搬回家了吧……到时要再温存，那么或许得在外开房。小猫虽然搬走了，但有时会回来过夜。我没打算让这些女人碰头。我更没打算和她家人碰面。莫名的危机感正在萌芽……但一时半刻我还真的没有主意。到了傍晚一起下楼吃饭，到附近商场溜达……

这样的生活随着Elaine搬回家后估计不复存在。

今天Yun的父母过来照顾她，我不方便在场。本来想到Pat那里，可她男友的父母去拜访她。Elaine和教堂的朋友到马来西亚……我托Elaine帮我顺便买点儿东东。这样，早上和Diana通了一个小时话后基本上……又是一个无聊的周末。要是没有估计错误，明天小猫会过来吧……Yun知道小猫若过来，我一般上会陪着小猫。

外面下着雨。反正老天也不让出门……最糟糕的是，我连制作图片的心情也没有~

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新加坡是到了非得改革的时候了。

但……

如今的情况是还不能改革。

奸人当道，行动党的政治资本已经花得精光了。

反对党却也是烂泥一大把。呵呵呵~

改革……难道还得如孙中山一样，发动革命？

这个总理难道真的是个饭桶？

现在的都会成为将来的历史，这段历史会怎么写？

终于，行动党非得面对这么多年下来的问题政绩。

过眼云烟……一切似乎都来得太迟太迟了。如今的行动党已经是新加坡发展和美好前途的第一大绊脚石。

但是……

反对党却也不是什么好替代。所以……

真正的政治人才还是没有出山。时局必须要他们全部出马才能稳下来。

这样，国家和人才才能前进。真正的任人唯贤才有可能。这个总理太混了。靠他，改革遥遥无期的。

其实有好有坏。在关键时期还引进一大批无能的垃圾，这股倒执政党的浪潮才能越来越强。上梁不正，下梁歪；底下很多垃圾会生成更多垃圾。

李小龙总理并不知道腐败的可怕。连赌场都搬来了两座。

对国家和国人，我是失望的。今非昔比……

想从政是有目的的。因为我痛恨新加坡的腐败、堕落……要铲除社会的垃圾，权利就必须在人才的手中。

所以，反对党必须和行动党争个鱼死网破；鹬蚌相争的情况下才能有突围的机会。我必须忍。要是还有时间，要是有才高八斗的同僚，新加坡可以尝试改革。历史可以洁白许多。要不，就让新加坡灭亡算了。

要改革是需要一个时代的好手……不知道多么好的运气。新加坡的沉沦可谓之天意。要不，你要改革，没好手你改个屁~

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小猫过了一夜，在隔壁房睡，早上离开时，用手轻轻摸了我的脸把我弄醒了。原来她要上班去了。她还是有些不舍得我；估计她要离开新加坡了吧……她的事儿迟早也得有个了断的。其实我也不怎么舍得她，但她毕竟对不起我又改不了……

下午，我劝老妹疏远小人，但她还是听不进去。朋友……朋友迟早会害死她的。算命说她最终孤寂终老，估计和这个有关。天下哪有近小人而有真朋友的？她说的道理根本就是胡来。算了~劝都劝过了。

我的一门心思就是离开这个龌龊的小岛……

其实无论老弟或老妹，其实都是‘小人’。两个人眼里没有是非对错，只有是非；结交的自然多是小人。这个我还是清楚的。我的话在家里他们是听不进去的。老弟ShineShine Empire的事情捅那么大娄子，包括老妈都去护着小弟……连表姐弟都似乎觉得只要能赚钱都……

在我心里有个疙瘩。那就是凯瑟琳。我估计她会不会也是这样的女人。在新加坡，很难不碰到小人……特别是爱钱一族。我不愿意自己心爱的人那么缺德。但事实上……

未来房价的事情，我闻之，笑之，淡然之。房价会掉，金融必定要遭殃，消费力必然得调整，那么私人教育的‘顾客群’很难不受影响。不过到时，‘罪魁祸首’必定是那个傻子许文远部长，来个‘无能部长不能保持人民资产价值’的罪名……遗臭万年。那个呆子一下子抛出一大堆地皮和房子干预自由市场……结果左右就是个败。新加坡多少家庭不是贷款购屋的？房价真的下调30%，抵押的房子不值钱，那么……不过，多数人都会相信下调后还会急起直追的房价未来。但这些人就是希望房价冲到天上去~哈哈哈哈哈！！！

所以许文远完蛋了。明明没有才能却不肯下台。结果就是马宝山II，遗臭万年呗……说实在的，论当今领导，谁真的有这个才能？很多说尚达曼部长不错，可他能顶国家发展部这烂摊子？网上揶揄不断，搞不好李小龙总理真的让尚达曼接替了许文远……那时就真的有好戏看了。这就是时政。林文兴也不愿意下台，林勋强也不愿意下台，但……个个都是占着茅坑不拉屎，新加坡就这样拿大笔银子养得这帮子没用的东西肥肥重重的，新加坡真的沉下去了。这一沉，连那个不长翅膀的李小龙总理也拖了下去……淹死了。

这就是新加坡‘任人唯贤’的混帐体制。而李光耀老爷子也只能眼巴巴看着2011又进一批饭桶在国会浪费时间，胡说八道，那么2016年就悄悄到来了。然后又是陈腔滥调一番，什么招最好的东东为领导，什么这个那个胡扯一通忽悠愚民，然后……

李小龙总理为什么不就干脆下台，把他引进的垃圾也一起带走算了？要么就励精图治，要么就走得潇洒，这样拖拖拉拉的，成何体统？反对党虽然也不是什么好东西，不过李氏的行动党下台了，那春秋就可以揭幕了。就是因为反对党没有治国之能，所以才可能出现三国，然后出现三国归一。说穿了，行动党已经算是‘老派系’了。这个派系越来越莫名其妙，已经到了近乎无能的状态了。反对党是一个派系，无能但有着百姓怨言代表的使命。最后就是我们的改革派。改革不是口号，不是党的名字，改革是个必须，是时代的关键，是新社会必要的产物。旧社会的腐败必须接受改革的洗礼。

这三个派系……最先运作的就是老派系和反对派系的争锋相对，然后……才有我们改革派。在一般历史的长廊下，改革的走道都在腐败的后期。要改革就必须要人才。如今两派斗争，根本就不必人才。所以，李小龙总理号称的‘内部改革’根本就是空话。下一批入阁的议员又是一批无用的滥竽充数。天底下是没有瞎子能找到出迷宫的路的。天底下没有孙中山就没有改革，有袁世凯就只有假象。李小龙总理面对的Meritocracy和snobbishness注定了改革是一派胡言。所以，总理每次谈到change，谈到行动党的未来，我难免苦笑。这根本就是自己和自己说废话，自己让自己高兴，谁脑子正常的会相信一派胡言？

这整个社会都被治理得小人处处，那么龌龊了……我拿什么相信还有美好的明天？

新加坡……建国才五十年，在一个后世界大战的新时代，在一个改革开放后的新时代，才历经三个总理和一个chief，现在的政治……就让人那么心寒。所以改革派必须忍耐，必须耐着心等。

可我真的不想等了。我想走。

其实就新加坡这么个渺小的小岛，让我痛心的事情太多了。我是不会感谢政府的meritocracy和搞出那么个腐败堕落的社会的。现在连李小龙总理也深受其害。不过李小龙总理是咎由自取。是他故意胡乱找人充斥国会，是他把两座赌场强行安在新加坡，是他把狗屁不通的Tin Pei Ling搞到了国会成了天下人的笑话，是他让教育搞到乱七八糟，一发不可收拾。在这么极其凶险的关键时刻，他居然那么糊涂，疯狂~也是他，把那个呆子许文远调到祸福深切的国家发展部的。难道新加坡真的在他眼里只是个游乐园，一个玩具？我看不到他的认真。2016年的大选，我看不到行动党的未来……

总理太让人失望了。我根本无法指望这样的政权能还我们什么公道，保护我们的权益。

他有这个能力吗？他手中有大将吗？

其实很多事儿是急不来的，这都是一个过程。没有鸡就没有蛋，没有蛋也没有鸡。以前Labor Front受宠，然后是行动党，行动党从万众一心到了后期的民心尽失反对党抬头，这都是过程。希望快，但能怎么快？要改革，需要时机。因为……要改革注定终究得大战一场。武则天也变过法，但也得大战一场。历朝历代虽然改革是必须的，但永远都必须历经冲突。这……是人才和守旧的垃圾背水一战。对于新加坡，这将是必须的持久战。因为不改革，新加坡就无法前进；经济、社会、政界、商界和军政都需要与时并进。就好像李老爷子看着李小龙总理四面楚歌，被meritocracy给一下下杀死掩埋一样，就必须推陈出新，万象更新。

李小龙总理在新加坡政治历史中的失败是个永垂不朽的教训……只要小人当道鸡犬升天，一个无论起家多艰难辉煌的政权也会升天的。

培养了那么多小人的政权，如今已经是座空壳……

可惜啊！

荡秋千。

搜狐的博客很难下载，今天还顺利，但希拉莉那里开不起来。明天的班机登不成，北京没办法去，因为我的身体又抱恙了。看着杭州的景色……要是几年前我不回国，现在的我已经上班了，正在迎接着冬天的到来，正在路边吃羊肉串，正在和希拉莉胡说八道，嬉笑街舞，正在准备新年的到来。缤纷夺目的王府井就在两个小时车程外，中国是个很happening的地方，热闹的人潮和绚丽的琳琅满目……不光是货，还有各地的文化交流。在新加坡，人潮还是有的，但……太粗俗。

莫名其妙的，我又想起了中国住过的城市……那里多姿多彩的生活……新加坡人很野蛮；中国也有野蛮的人，但他们的野蛮你能不必去打交道。新加坡有种令人窒息的感觉，这里的机遇不是处处，而是小人处处。这小岛上的小人……永远都不觉得自己是小人。突然脑海里涌入上海入冬浪漫的街景。但我很清醒。中国变了，已经不适合自己进驻。那个时机已经过了。每每想到这里，我很惆怅。那里才是我展现实力的所在……绝对不是新加坡这么个‘穷乡僻壤’。新加坡是个绝对精神贫血的地方。我看着报章的文……TMD根本没有深度。这里……华人不是华人，英文也不成体统，戏剧的功力更加不用说。

其实有件事儿我必须到杭州去办。最近我一直咳，一直不舒服，一直……

其实这几年我很挂念希拉莉。

其实我很不喜欢现在的中国。

暗潮汹涌，如今的中国已经不是什么福地。欧洲危机……其实早在算计之中。我希望……欧洲是第二个中国。远是远了点儿，但我没希望过再回新加坡。我不觉得这里有什么值得我留念的。

我想，我还是很向往那种雪地浪漫的生活……是啊，新加坡就像是段没有爱情的婚姻……我很累了。

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新加坡小报……勿洛蓄水池又出现尸体，是男的；五个月的第六具了。在新加坡，自杀的情况是，西边的倾向于跳地铁轨道，东边的就跳勿洛蓄水池。新加坡的勿洛蓄水池如今是要目睹死亡的好去处，几乎月月上演一次悲剧。新加坡人真的幸福吗？为什么议员没有办法阻止这些悲剧？

因为新加坡议员似乎很无能。

很无能又喜欢抗辩。

我也不知道这种时局要到什么时候，但是……

在一个小人处处的国家，要怎么找全民英雄？

真的，新加坡令人感觉窒息。

这里的女人疯狂着……

这里的男人多数很变态……

真是绝配。

新加坡的社会完蛋了。

反正以后我也移民，所以其实应该和我没有关系。这个落寞的国家，如今被赌场、恶势力等吞蚀着。

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傍晚，Pat很快进入高潮，我则有些气喘呼呼。毕竟最近身体很不寻常……Pat说男友向她求婚了。我觉得那是好事儿，恭喜了她。我们俩的事儿还是瞒着他比较好。Pat在我怀里，我抚弄着她柔顺的长发，就这样抱着没有一句废话。若是她结婚了，还要不要继续这样的温存……坦白说，我心里有点儿不舍得。这不是因为Pat漂亮，她就是有那种小女人却顽固的性格。我想睡……但Pat提醒了我，她男友等下会过来接她到他家吃饭……见家长。

我只好深深在她额头印上一个吻，洗了澡就离开了。

若他和她是爱情，我和她则是男人和女人那么单纯……

其实在前几天，Yun陪我看医生时，医生说……我纵欲过度，所以腰虚了。我没有告诉Pat。在新加坡，若连在床上的欢乐都禁了，那也太无聊了。Yun那双修长的腿儿就很迷人。不过她一本正经提醒着我这几个月必须禁欲。我对她只是傻笑……只要Pat不告诉她，她不找Pat，我觉得也不必那么紧张。而且Elaine最近也有空了，我也常往她家跑……Pat的主要问题是得注意她男友。Amy最近也不找我了，Diana也出国了。估计换是希拉莉也在，我根本耳根难以清静。不过……希拉莉肯定容不下她们。这点我还是比较清楚的。

当男人就是门学问。

Pat的男友其实多数日子都没空，估计婚后也如此；其实Pat自己也是加班王。按照Pat的意思……周末是老公的，周日让我还找她。这个女人……想不到那么贪心，婚姻和浪漫都要。其实这也成。反正Yun打算转行，Elaine也快毕业打工了，那么周末就腾得出来。

其实我曾经问Pat……她想不想嫁给他。她想。她想有自己的家，有自己的男人和孩子；因为她是女人。但她对激情放不了手；也因为她是个女人。我告诫过她……这样根本就是玩火……

但女人要的时候，男人怎么劝都是没有用的；因为女人就是女人。

下个月，Pat的男友需要出国三天……我当初认识Pat时，美丽的她伤心难过……被男人甩了。我永远记得那时的她……纯纯的，很斯文……但现在的Pat越来越贪心。也许结婚后，她会发现她真正需要的是什么。那是个没有激情的稳定，还是浪漫激情的人生……？我越来越觉得Pat不适合当黄脸婆。虽然这样世俗不容，但对她而言……她对婚姻是好奇的，是期待的……对婚纱，对度蜜月，对婚宴都是期待。但结婚是一辈子的，一辈子不是天天的蜜月，天天的婚宴、婚纱和祝福。那个男人和我，到底谁比较了解Pat？

毕竟Pat只是一个女人。

而我……我只是个男人。

杂音。

这两天一个小妹妹在佛山被两辆车辗过的画面成了很大的话题……因为不少路人见死不救，袖手旁观，视若无睹，结果小妹妹被一个拾荒的阿嫂拖开了，然而这个阿嫂却被人攻击是为了自我宣传……

老男人也常被那些莫名其妙的垃圾‘网友’攻击，但我懒得理。

这事件很震惊，老男人不打算引用任何录影，因为小妹妹太可怜，老男人不忍心。换是老男人在场肯定出手去救；反正……我管全世界说我三道我四，揶揄我博宣传也罢，老男人统统当放屁。该做的就应该去做，你管那些王八蛋放屁……该爱的人就去爱，我也不理天下人说什么。我就是这种天上天下唯我独尊的怪物，所以人我会救，奖金我大大方方‘吞掉’。

很多人骂中国人冷血，说中国社会生病了……其实新加坡也是如此。当年就有个工作人员倒在雨中，俱乐部的人自己开车就走……视若无睹，见死不救……好在没有辗过他而已。新加坡的社会也是生病的了。有个女人抱着儿子跳水自杀，EDMW很多人揶揄那个老公，但几个人确实会在事发前伸出援手？像Wee Shu Min这类“Get lost from my uncaring elitist face”的小女生其实比比皆是。新加坡失业落魄的人大有人在，但除了揶揄，这个社会其实也就如那些视若无睹的路人……

所以不单是中国，其实新加坡的社会也病了，而且病得是根深蒂固，光天化日，坦坦荡荡，还比中国早病至少十年。就新加坡和中国的素质而言……我看着网友谩骂中国社会变态，其实不过是五十步笑百步……

博客加了几首歌……

其实这个博客部分的用途就是开来听那些歌的。终于找到了Twilight 1打棒球那场的音乐。

国会的‘辩论’终于开场了……勉强看了，但素质简直差强人意，如此对国家一点好处也依旧没有。

最近上了Wordpress Support论坛，情况很糟糕。开了楼马上莫名其妙被‘Locked’住了，而且声明刚开的楼是已经发了40几年的帖子……？？？而且……反正那个论坛不是坏了就是我的户口坏掉了。

刚刚到芽笼晃悠了，站街的美女似乎多了，但天气转阴，雨滴悄然而至，但我的心也并非灿烂着。对性病的恐惧让我相当安分……美女群中有一个样貌相当洋化的，似乎是混血儿的美女，其穿着也相当性感，但钓一个洋人时似乎不成功。

我就这样走着，笑开了看热闹。坦白说，今天也是顺路走到了芽笼。站街的美女越多，这里的周边生意越旺，但居民的房价就下滑。

走着走着……想了很多事儿，想起了想忘掉的人，想到了小猫，想到了希拉莉，想到了对感情生活……越来越没信心，越来越恐惧……我想找个伴，但却不舍得单身的自由。小猫确实给我留下了阴影……要是找来的又是小猫这类……

女人……要怎样才能辨别哪个是能走一辈子的……好难。因为女人会变……而且越来越少女人明白追求真爱的重要性。

随缘吧~

新发型师弄出的头发还行，那么我就不必大老远到柔佛剪发。

其实有好些东西想写出来但不知从何开始。郁闷是相当的。

这张照片本来想加‘火山高校’的字样，但没有那种感觉。没有感觉怎么做事情？

我回到了http://www.singaporebrides.com/forumboard/messages/5/5.html看了近期那些疯狂女人的问题，其实多数的都是老问题；我也不知道这些人在‘关系’上的观念怎么那么怪异。还是老样子……一群人在那里胡说八道。

我过去利用心理测试拉出了她们一大堆的问题，那里多数的女人文化太低，对爱情没有概念，一旦风吹草动动不动就离婚。那里也是个病态社会。看来就算多一百年情况也不会有什么改进。

情这个字牵扯的太多，但并不复杂。

很快的，就要十一月了。看来我又要错过一次冬天……

这个社会杂音太多，但我很少去理会。对我而言，主要是矛盾。就好像我爱的女人却永远不能去追，更加不能在一起。而且她也不可能变成邂逅时的当时。

终于‘爱’快结束了。这么冗长无聊的台湾剧……最终也会和卡带一样被新一代的人而遗忘掉。剧是能够被遗忘……但爱情却毕生难忘。

也许人生如戏，但有些人永远不是这出戏中的戏子。缘分……好玄妙的一个编剧。

My Dick Is What You Really Need.

Ed said she is engaged. Well… Love is not a commitment, but marriage is… by laws. The thumb rule is she should be happy with the coming marriage only if she fancies the guy. The next issue is, of course… I think they are way too fast. While love is not a commitment, love is what fuels the commitment called marriage. I hope she is sure she is not going to be left with merely commitment and no love into the relationship. If need be, it’d be better to have no marriage but everlasting romance.

But women will age, women are usually insecure creatures, so they need a label called ‘wife’.

I shared my piece with Ed and wished her all the best.

But the point is… if he is not the One, since the One has not appeared… marriage might be a good thing to help her matures… to understand what love is. Besides, I’d be around whenever she needs help. I have been always around, but it is mere friendship.

Assuming Maia Lee‘s One had appeared… but she went on fucking lousy men and ended up with two kids… It’s humiliation to her One. But without the experience… she probably won’t see the need for a decent guy.

As for her parents’ issues with the guy… … Ed should know who she fancies. And that’s the only important issue because she only lives once. And yes… fighting to be with the one she fancies than the one other people think is better makes the relationship glows. She either marries to be happy or she marries to conform to social norms…

Ahem… besides, there is something called divorce… if her One shows up later.

She is definitely growing up.

Good for her…

But romance is one thing, marriage is another. Unless you are ready to commit forever… If you are ready to commit forever… Will your love be forever…?

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Chanced upon a Fiona Garden’s'blog… I’d like to… be able to produce photos like those in her blog. But I have my limitations.

Never mind, I’d try to break those limits. Rules and limits are meant to be broken.

Haven’t been to EDMW for a while, so took a peep last night… Super boring it is. It’s a forum of creeps… moderated by creeps, so girls beware… lest you aspire to be Maia Lee II… I don’t feel like landing in Flowerpod forum… Read some of the forum articles and… arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh~

Bought ‘Esper‘… It’s… so… lousy! I can’t believe we have such an wonderful idea being shot into trash like that. It’s not even suitable for 12yo… So S$5.90 wasted.

Participated at REACH’s what townhall chit chat… I find Amy Khor… she doesn’t seem to be that bright, and can’t understand simple things. But she is a doctorate holder, and was my cousin’s tutor. But we are the high IQ group, so Amy is still considered normal. Scope’s IQ is over 190… I scanned through the participants’ ‘views… mostly rubbish and anti-PAP and defensive shots…  That was going nowhere.

Singaporeans…

How can Singapore progress like that? A dummy government facing an island of dummies… … This is a dummy era. LOL~

Bo-bian… must endure when one is in Singapore. I really prefer the peers in China… They made sense, they had visions, they could handle issues and I don’t have to waste brain cells like “Wow, what the fuck you like so stupid…”

In Singapore, we will never be able to meaningfully discuss what we discussed in China… The middle east chaos, the financial crisis, the military efforts… This is Singapore, a well of toads… Baaaaaaaaaaaaaah~ They talked like toads, think like toads and work like toads… And these toads’ response to progress-calls will be…

“If you don’t like what you see, leave lah…”

LOL~

Sometimes I find them real entertaining… but most often, I am sad I am stuck with them.  They will never cease to be toads, I’d never be them.

Amy is a doctorate holder and a politician… I think she should realise that subsidises and taxations are… only two parts of balance sheets and there are tons of ways to balance without taxations. And since she doesn’t seem to know finance… why is she talking about the coming crisis? LOL~

Well… this is the government I’d have to deal with. Really… it’s like the blind trying to lead the awakened… But Amy is definitely better than Tin Pei Ling… But I have to keep the level of discussion disgustingly low if I have to participate in the coming townhall chats… with those ‘leaders’ and smart alecs protesting. Aiyah~

It’s like that… They don’t have the calibre, they mess up the situation, but they got the powers, and in order to deal with the situation they are messing up, we will have to deal with them… Relatively, Amy is still an ok MP.

Pathetic, yes. Reality, right… No choice. This is Singapore, where… meritocracy has it that no matter if you are a retard, you get your As studying like a nerd, finish your university courses… you are labelled a talent, and you can fuck the world called Singapore. So meritocracy is about idiots leading the smarts… the not talented leading the talented to me. That’s why Singapore has become a global joke.

To be fair, again and again… the oppositions are no better.

Singapore’s environment is really pretty barbaric… ridiculous and yeah… it’d be very hard to reason with anyone productively here. Anyway, internet is merely an entertainment to me… afterall, we are the batch of chaps who started since XT088 times. I’d continue to offer my views if anyone likes to have them, if not then just go elsewhere. The real effort in changing this stupid well is… afterall to physically go into politics.

No choice.

The people are going to throw out the incumbent… Singapore would have a chance to reset and make things right again. I mean… how can we have such a flood of fools and critters in charge in all corners of Singapore!? Everyone says change… but without brains, you can change 10000000x and what can you expect? You can expect the same old shit in all sorts of packages. Singapore’s situation dictates that we cannot have inferior leaders… Lee Kuan Yew said so… yet… … … …

“No matter how bright… nobody could see it coming…”

Whenever I recall this sentence, I’d laugh.

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I tried doing some videos, uploaded one to test out Youtube’s quality and stuff. Problem is, some personal shots of myself were affected by my sore throats and bad coughs… And yes… I am not sure if this is HIV or not. The initial uploading was shit… It couldn’t be loaded up into youtube. But since Scope seldom gives up… eventually it works. It took about half an hour to load a piece of 1.2gb rubbish, and the quality comes out pretty standard.

Then I realise that the cheap video editor I got requires me to CALL the company all the way in Britain or something… to register. What the~

I am NOT calling in this age of emails and automated registering online. So I am not going to work with that editor that always hangs after I said no to registering.

When I first started out doing photo-editing, the real issue that helped me through was discovering that I had always have one simple but very powerful editor… that I am using now, and using it at times with Photoshop to boost the effect. Seriously, I don’t need something that complicated to start video editing; I am afraid I’d lose interest… …

There is this notice at my home… Premas is looking for admin staff…

Not applying. Cos I don’t trust that company.

I find it very hard to trust those lalas in Singapore… … especially those linked to the government. Premas is one such entity, it seems. It always reminds me of a United-Premas thingy… that I find gross. Better safe than sorry on this one. But decent employers are hard to come by in Singapore. So…

So I still prefer to have a life overseas. Seriously, this society is suffocating.

Make a wish and hope it’d come true… I wish… to land in a wonderful career overseas.

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Researchers make older beta cells act young again http://www.breakthroughdigest.com/medical-news/researchers-make-older-beta-cells-act-young-again/
October 11, 2011 by admin
As a person ages, the ability of their beta cells to divide and make new beta cells declines. By the time children reach the age of 10 to 12 years, the ability of their insulin-producing cells to replicate greatly diminishes. If these cells, called beta cells, are destroyedA—as they are in type 1 diabetesA— treatment with the hormone insulin becomes essential to regulate blood glucose levels and get energy from food. Now, longtime JDRF-funded researchers at Stanford University have identified a pathway responsible for this age-related decline, and have shown that they can tweak it to get older beta cells to act young againA—and start dividing.
The work, to appear in the October12 issue of Nature, provides the most complete picture to date of the molecular and biochemical mechanisms that bring beta cell regeneration to a near halt as beta cells age. These findings may help pave a path for developing strategies to restore beta cell number to treat both type 1 and type 2 diabetes.

In their work, the researchers, led by Seung Kim, M.D., Ph.D., of Stanford University, found that a protein called PDGF, or platelet derived growth factor, and its receptor send beta cells signals to start dividing via an intricate pathway that controls the levels of two proteins in the beta cell nucleus, where cell division occurs. Working with young mice, Dr. Kim and his team found that PDGF binds to its receptor on the beta cell’s surface and controls the level of these regulating proteins allowing cells to divide. However, in older mice, they discovered that beta cells lose PDGF receptors, and that this age-related change prevents beta cells from dividing. Dr. Kim and his colleagues further found that by artificially increasing the number of PDGF receptors, they can restore the ability of the beta cell to divide and generate new cells.

The researchers also show that this age-dependent beta cell proliferation pathway is also present in human beta cells. Similar to the findings with mice beta cells, the researchers found that juvenile human islet beta cells proliferate in response to PDGF, but adult human islet beta cells do not due to a reduced level of PDGF receptors.

In the past, researchers have used other techniques to trigger older beta cells to start dividing, but they have been met with challenging results, explains Dr. Kim, who is also a Howard Hughes Medical Institute investigator. “You can get these cells to grow but they will literally lose their specific identity as a beta cell,” he says. “They will either stop making insulin, or they’ll grow just fine but they will grow uncontrollably or into other cell types.”

But with the advent of better genetic tools and the completion of the human genome project, that era has come to pass, he explains. “With these advanced technologies, we are now able to get a comprehensive viewA—at the genetic levelA—of the changes beta cells undergo as they age, and we can track these changes and study them in a systematic way,” he adds. “By understanding what genes are turned on and off in a young beta cell, we can try to recreate that genetic environment in older beta cells such that they divide in a desirable, controlled manner.”

By better understanding the mechanisms that control and govern pancreatic i¢-cell proliferation, researchers could transform treatments for diabetes. The cascade leading from PDGF binding to its receptor on the beta cell’s surface to changes in protein levels within the nucleus could inspire scientists with new ideas on how to discover new drugs to safely promote beta cell regeneration to replace those lost in diabetes.

“A major goal of JDRF’s regeneration program is to find ways to preserve and restore functional beta cells as a cure for type 1 diabetes. One of the challenges is that adult beta cells do not readily replicate, and these new findings provide key insight on how the body regulates beta cell growth and replication,” says Patricia Kilian, Ph.D., JDRF’s scientific program director of regeneration research. “Based on these key scientific insights, we hope the new findings will help enable the discovery of safe therapies to promote beta cell regeneration.”

That’s good news. It seems that if we can make old cells in all functions behaving young again… if we can produce ‘multi-proteins’ to make this work, then the big crap about the elixir of eternal life will be possible. So the problem is really… where can we find those proteins to ‘eat’?

I totally welcome this news, and it’s looking like not from Singapore again…

If we can reverse the process of life, we may end up kids once again… grow old, become kids again, then grow old…. but even if that is impossible, at least we’d be disease free. And death can be cheated… Yes. Cheating death is no longer looking remote an idea. And then… bringing the dead alive will be the next goal… 1000 years down the road.

I mean… if the body is a complicated system of bio-mechanical issues… why do I have to die?

Ok. I forget… I am already an immortal.

To be honest, I am way more interested in these developments than those craps in parliament. The real issue is… yes, we got the cure… and can we afford that? Seriously… I am totally encouraged by this outrageous development overseas… and they set my brains thinking again. That’s the good thing about internet.

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Man linked to Temasek Review arrested, now on bail http://sg.news.yahoo.com/man-linked-to-temasek-review-arrested–now-on-bail.html

Joseph Ong Chor Teck, linked to socio-political website Temasek Review Emeritus (TRE), was arrested last month for offences under the Parliamentary Elections Act.

A police spokesman told The Sunday Times he has been released on bail pending further investigations but said it was inappropriate to comment further as investigations are ongoing.

Ong was arrested on 3 September for conducting a general election exit poll on the TRE website, previously named Temasek Review, asking people to share how they voted, the paper reported.

It is illegal to publish opinion polls during an election and exit polls on Polling Day before results are announced.

Ong was previously reported to be the founder of TRE and its predecessor, The Wayang Party. TRE, which has been suspended since last month, is known for its articles critical of the government.

If found guilty, Ong can be fined up to $1,500 or jailed for a term not exceeding 12 months, or both.

Last October, Ong was warned by the police after a smear campaign against Member of Parliament Lee Bee Wah.

It’s a law he broke, a law that even Scope isn’t really aware of. Actually, I am aware of election laws, but I NEVER really know them since this is not where I am interested in. This is one of the chaps behind Temasekreview…  There will be more to be dug out from TRE and TOC as well. Mostly smartalecs who have the money to fool around… taking the government head on. Heroic, but usually I’d also look at those heroes’ characters… I am totally neutral to this doctor Joseph Ong.

In real, these netizens cross over to EDMW and TOC and many of them think they are the kings and queens online… they think they rule. LOL~

If internet is like some sort of Super Mario 7 to Scope and you think you rule internet, you make me laugh.

But honestly, TRE had done a great job pissing off the government for years, and has been a better platform than TOC. But to Scope… both are purely entertainment issues. And of course, both are fighting to ‘dominate’ this well of toads… and the fight goes on.

What would really turn Scope on is new aspiring parties… not the so-called platforms where indian chiefs spring out to play mountain kings and queens and… what the fuck use are those talk cocks sing songs to do with progress?

If we must have platforms… we must have one that is really ‘governed properly’ by good people so that news and discussions or voices are fair across the board.

The current ‘media’ is merely one pot-shooter mudslinging against the others… So I never really took TRE nor TOC seriously.

Life goes on… …

It’s the same as how Scope deals with Amy Khor, if she likes to listen I’d talk and talk and talk until her panties got wet, otherwise I’d just find something fun elsewhere… This is the internet, there are tons of interesting things going on… You can read about a blogger… and her breasts and her cunt here… here also got another embracing sexuality… Girls love sex… Men love girls…

Ladies and gentlemen… this is the real cyber-world.

Self confession… I am really very open-minded to those things, provided those girls ain’t whom I love, and of course… they are not my type.

It’s the same when I spent time at Orchard Towers admiring those beauties… It’s one thing to drool at them or even to fuck them and another to want to marry them… It’s the same as sex… sex and love are two different things… to different entities. There are some girls you can just lust after without love in the bargain; there are girls you will want the love and the sex in the package. In a simpler fashion, there are people who can be friends of benefits, they are people who can’t.

Talking about Lee Bee Wah… I also don’t know where the hack PAP dug her out. We have limited seats, we have limited resources… how come we have unlimited funny MPs…??? OK. What is Lee Bee Wah known best for…

Her petty mud fights with a mainland coach… twice even after Dr Vivian tried to smooth things out. What an old woman… …

I don’t understand… I just can’t understand it’s like we don’t have talented true blue Singaporeans and we have to resort to placing that old woman as MP in such a time of need; and that’s good governance? This is like some sort of human resource plague in Singapore… … and it’s definitely killing this once almighty (snobbish) PAP. And how many still remember we do have a team called P65 MPs… We have a team of P65 MPs whereby the younger generation is like going to revolt in the coming elections. That’s hilarious.

The message from Scope is… Please be serious with politics and serve us seriously, many fuck lives are at stack. But it’s really like telling Kishore to think when he wrote ‘can asians think’… Arrrrrrrrrrgh~

So after playing catching with TOC and TRE… what next?

Meritocracy… (Scope dances around in room naked… and laughes out loud)

Heard this doctor is pretty horny too… … But who isn’t? LOL~

Suddenly… I imagine this doctor Joseph meeting Glenda Han, then they go for a handshake… and Glenda instead caught hold of his dick… LOL~

Yeah, Scope is very naughty lah~ Now you only know meh?

Imagination is not a crime.

Here’s a poem…

I got great balls,

But I’d bang her and her and her…

But not against the authorities…

Why?

Because authorities are ugly bitches…

I’d shoot the fountain of all sperms…

I’d shoot at the stars…

I’d shoot at the women I love…

But I’d not shoot at the system…

Why?

Because there are too many holes at one go,

And I am but one great dick.

It’s true. Heroes die first, but real heroes finish last… Politics is not a competition of who to be the first matyr… but who to be the last mohican. Dead men can change shits. Smart alecs can change nothing. Aspiring to be a political leader means your dick wants to enter Glenda Han but your brain wants to enter the parliament, and you listen to your brain.  And when the opportunity comes, then you can change the world for the better.

Let us… download a porn and start jacking off to TRE…